My fear of emailing EK a hot mess

First, I need to round up a few links!

We’ve got:

A review of Take the Reins from Mara at Whitebrook Farm. Thanks, Mara! 🙂

An interview up at Harmony Book Reviews. Thanks again, Harmony!!

A guest blog at Presenting Lenore. I did a Letterman-style “Top 10 Things I’ve Learned About Writing” list. Thanks for letting me stop by, Lenore!

And now, back to my little writing corner. I’m *almost* finished with TRIPLE FAULT.

Probably a week or so until it’s done. Then it gets sent off to Editor K. But my OMG-I-so-suck cycle begins just before I email the draft. 🙂 Hitting the send button to email my book off to EK or Agent A is still sooo hard! I pull up Hotmail, attach the file, sit, stare and then close out the window. I open the Word doc, scan a few pages and then convince myself it’s really time to let it go. So, Hotmail comes up again and I reattach the file. There’s pacing, glossing of lips, eye rolling at myself and then I finally press send.

Then?

Nooooo! Why did I press the button?! It wasn’t ready! Take it back!

But, of course, I can’t take it back. I force myself to close the laptop and walk away. I remind myself that EK and AA haven’t said, “JB, you just emailed us a hot mess. You’re fired.” before, so the draft might be okay.

Yes, that’s my process. 🙂